it just aint right....

so everyone doesnt have to ask...
copyright my ass

maybe it's my own fault that my term concluded this way. maybe not. but i swear upon the holy lands that i didnt expect it to turn out like that. the worst part is, it's been done, and i have no control in rectifying it. so no use crying over spilt milk, right? hey, who on earth get's 3 Fs?? heck, i've never in my entire life gotten more than 2 Fs in a term, and that was back when i had like 10 different subjects to juggle. pondering to myself last night, what should i do? continue in this treacherous trek downhill, or just jump off a cliff? the latter would be more convenient, taking the easy way out. but do i ever make life easy for myself? nopes.

now i feel that i've been cheated. cheated by my own self-confidence. nice. i realized that a funny yet vicious cycle has formed for me. when i do persevere, i end up with Fs. when i dont give two hoots, i get Ds. can u imagine if i didnt show up for school at all, and jsut came straight for exams? maybe i would have a chance of scoring As. if only. i have nothing else to say, if anyone wants to rub it in my face that they scored distinctions for the subjects which i failed, it would be indifferent to me. im just having second thoughts about packing up and leaving ngee ann for good. no use my being here, a burden to the science community. should start afresh. and im jsut ranting on and on.