sense of awe

caught "the passion of the christ" today. relatively confusing show. yes, im from the same religion, but it really set my mind thinking. i really dont know much abt the bible at all. went to watch it with nicky n leon. controversial film. very gruesome, but i dont get moved to tears.not my style. think the biggest boo-boo i made was asking nicky is she thought they would show bloopers after the movie. oops. hahha.

ok..wanna know the real scoop? the parts where the devil makes a sudden appearance is scary!!!! yes..and he looks so androgynous too. oh, monica bellouci looks so good in this show, playing the part of mary magdalene. but the virgin mary..is erm...ugly. hehe. wad a way to put it. oh..but surprisingly..there is comic relief in this movie. when jesus jokes with his mother. cool. but..somehow, it was so un-jesus like. ok..the show is so super gory....so much blood..no one can survive after losing like 12 pints of blood, and being flogged almost to death. i guess,in some ways it set me thinking. abt god. all of a sudden im thinking abt god. god. such good timing. good friday is coming, and im finally getting in tune with holeness. hole? holyness..no..holiness. i was very impressed with all the little details that made up the movie. just minute details. and the guy who plays pontius pilate if fantastic, as nicky mentioned, he could really show an expression of conflict on his face: give the people what they want, or go by his own conscious and free jesus. overall good movie. worth the cash.

oh, i have just one thing to point out. it really makes me think: world peace. ahaha. bimbotic but yea. when we walked into the cinema(lido mind you!) the first thing that caught my eye wasn't the vastness of the theatre, but the tudungs. yes, malays in tudungs sitting in several rows. watching a show based entirely on another religion, though it's somewhat related to theirs. yes, i think that was what warmed my heart. ok, wld prob think i crazy,but i ahve this thing against racial/religious/sexual/social, or basically any form of prejudice. i dont lyke prejudice. yes, so seeing those pple there, trying to understand the same show im watching, is just....right. in a way. u feel that if such a gruesome show could bring pple together,a common interest,may not be a religious following, but just lyke any other movie, then it is worth it. we shld invest in making more movies,maybe about allah, shiva, athena, watever. just one movie can generate so many reactions.

maybe i've a slow reaction, but only now, as im typing all this, do i suddenly feel that there's a msg for me in the movie. shan't say what. dont wanna come across as a holey-moley,coz i aint. but i have got things to do now. several,in fact.