you, or you, or YOU!

wishful thinking. i shant elaborate on that.

next up, watched smthg on tv recently, quite sadd, but i cant rmb what i watched. i cant rmb much of anything these days. really.

but i do rmb this. how cld pple in this world be so selfish? i cant understand. usually when someone sks for help, people would naturally up and help that person, but noooooooo. u actually had the time to say "eh, no, no,...." trailing off, coz i cldnt really hear wad u said, but u were making it extrememly obvious that u were unwilling to share you dire skills and 'beloved' work with us. no one wants it anyway. we cld always ask others for help. now i know. i hate these kinda pple. others help them, be it academically,socially,physically, whatever it is, pple offer help, yet you just like to keep your own things to yourself. keep ur skills and knowledge, i dont want them. no one wants them. and fuck your class. the whole fucking bunch. so what if i made some friends there? it took me almost two years to make friends with you all, and i dont mind losing it in a minute. expect me to learn for a test, when no one returns my work. excellent. i know im not very bright, or good with my school work, all the more you all should like, you know, use a little intiative. return me my poo work, at least i can learn a wee bit from corrections or smthg. fuck. yea, and all of you panicking like prairie dogs on high alert over the test. commenting that you didnt study enough, you're likely to know too little, all those phrases along those lines, whereby you say you would not do well, some go as far as saying they would fail, but i bet deep in your hearts, you are all like 'i think im only gonna get 70/100, but i want 90!!!'. all i can say is fuck you all. maybe this is like pms-ing or smthg, but i get so irate over pple with false premonitions over their academic excellence. because, unlike you fucking smart arseholes, im not. i fail when i say i fail. i dont need to pep myself with verbal abuse before a test.

if you think im talking about you, or you or YOU, and are thinking of ceasing whatever friendships i have with you pple, by all means go ahead. i dont need more friends in this life. i think i have enough for now, thank you. and if any of you are so unhappy or curious to know what this is about, i'll be glad to entertain you. for awhile.