spilf

what's that word supposed to mean? i aint got a clue.
looking at most other pple's online journals and stuff these days, have got me thinking....what is the real use for posting your woes and whims for total access to the world? in order to keep things secret,u shldnt post anything on the web,no matter how discreet a web address you have, or how unfamiliar an alias you adopt,it's absolutely senseless to put your heart and soul, your very essence into a post. secrets would not be leaked out if only one had the tact to not post it in a public place. despite all the security precautions, it's not very difficult to hack away. ok..enough preaching for one day.

let me just try to squish all my thoughts(that i wldnt mind other pple knowing..) into this entry,which will show up in a tiny box on my blog. dont you think the reading area(wad's it called?) is pretty darn small? anyhooo....studies(aint that a raving 'hot' topic to discuss). yes, the ever popular  hobby among singaporean youths, studying is an artform in its own right. i have to admit, i lack the talent of studying. impossible,but true. how many times have i ttied to no avail? too many distractions are aplenty, and though i try to put my heart and soul into reading a couple of meaningless sentences,and trying to apply muddling formulas, i cant seem to understand what their trying to tell me. over and over again(or whenever im trying to study/pay attention during class/or just looking at my notes) i wonder if i was sane,or if i still am, when i chose this 'rite of passage'. science. hah. ok...not only that, countless times ive made the same solemn vow to do better the next time, put in more effort, blah blah blah, havent we heard it all before? but it just isnt the same. i have studied studied, ive just flipped here and there, rewritten some nites, and ta-daa!!! ive managed to scrape through most of my life. now, i see things arent as sweet as they used to be. which kinda sucks. up to now,my parents dont know that im repeating a module,their so happy that im slowly 'picking up'. golly gosh, dont want to see their faces when they receive the letter(warning of dismissal) in the mail. well, tried time and time again to win their trust,but just as im about to reach the peak to eternal bliss, i tumble down the rocky side...starting right fromm scratch. urgh. the horrors of life with a sadistic god. it's the same reason why they disallowed me from going overseas after O's. coz i love the fun, forget the consequences,till it's smack in your face. darn it. the rantings  of a teenage 'failing-in-studies-and-life' girl. who's interesteD? apparently no one, so im speaking ti myself..slef-motivation of sorts. so when i chance upon my own blog,i can go 'ooh, that person sounds like me...share the same sentiments..wow..there are pple like me out there in the world too. wait a minute...sounds familiar...oh fuck damnit, it is me.' *sigh*. hehhehe. im insane.

ok..on a lighter note. im really eager to watch 'private parts'. so eager that i started singing a song that went smthg like this, "private parts...i wanna see private parts..privates...private parts.." not knowing the obscenity of the words i was uttering. heh. oops. it's just a title!!! no biggie. aint rearing to see anyone's privates,i aint a horny bitch. ooh..on the word "'oops'"..i notice that everyone says 'oops', but they all spell it as 'opps'. and i dont know why i find it so hilarious. sorry...just had to mention that..been seeing pple male that mistake for donkey years now.not just typing..even hand-written stuff. opps..opps...ahahhaa. not once,not twice...but over and over..until it becomes sort of a joke.

ooooh...alvin!! still on for sch u. day on fridaY? coz i am. dont pang seh me..if not it would be uber embarrassing to be the only one..i think i'd better bring my own clothes..just in case! find other pple to join us...yea? okok. as u all can see..it's early evening and imm blogging..aint got a clue why. maybe to make up for all the days i didnt blog,though i wont wanna make this a daily affair.

oh, think we made more enemies in the LT last week, and today as well. aahhaa. alvin's 'crush'(yea rite, she will crush him to death) and her clique. ahahahhaa. sorry,the hilarity of the situation. okok..to be fair..both ben's and alvin's crushee(yes,she was employed to crush them to death with her enormity of love and massive body strength).whenever she sits close by, as in really close...they wld wanna change seats. ahahaha. ok,maybe im being mean, but all this time we've been in the same lt, i never once mentioned about it. but just hgave to, i dont care who's reading this now...hahaha. it aint a secret what,not mentioning names,so dont get so offended if you think it's you,coz it mightn't be, unless you admit to having a huge crush on 2 st gab's boys' simultaneously. omg. wad a horrific thought. hehe. ok...the antics she unknowingly performs during lects really cracks us up...she doesnt know she's funny. truth be told, she's a little creepy. they all are. and well...buncha girly girls. if you happen to see her(doubt you cld miss it) and take the time,or in our case,stuck in a really boring lect, to observe her movements, more interesting than watching NGC or animal planet. hehehehe. dubbed the 'cleopatra gone wrong'. sorry.....feeling a mean streak coming along. if i dont stop soon, i just might end up poking fun on everyone in the blizzardly cold lecture theatre. so it's a warning signal(more like screaming siren!) that i shld stop here for today. no offense('offence' is for a crime right?) taken aight?